It´s been a very long long time, at least a year and a half, since I last felt the will to sit at home and write a decent post. Today, with views of releasing my next album in a couple of days, I felt it was the right moment. I feel like having a lot to say so if you are not in the mood of reading a hell of a long post… shut this and do any other thing of your pleasure, I will not take it amiss at all, whatsoever.
I don’t consider myself to be a Singer, since I don’t make my living out of music. I also don’t think I have fans, I just like to think about them as people that, occasionally, enjoy what I do and sooner or later, end up establishing some short of relationship with me, maybe end up just trading a couple of mails or being party buddies. I don’t feel I have the commitment to be releasing music every other year nor having to be extremely kind to the media in order to reach more and more people.. that´s not me. I am just a guy that likes what he does and that when he has the need to share a song, for whatever the reason, just sings it. Period. I don’t say nor sing stuff if I don’t mean it. Full blank period.
What’s more, all these tracks (and the last album’s) have been recorded in a moment of my life in which I was retired from music. Let´s be honest, I am not Justin Timberlake nor will ever be, plus I don’t want to be him, I want to be ME and enjoy what I do, even if it reaches ten or ten billion people, that´s fine with me. I had recorded my last album “Dr. Jakey & Mr. Ryk” with Jake and I was fully done and happy with my achievements so far.
Until I fell in love.
But not a normal crush, right? I REEEEEALLY fell in love to the bone. And I have to recognize it, something that I hate to do, but I am still in love. I´m working on it.. but such is life...
One day, my better half told me “and you? How come you don’t want to sing again? It´s a pity because I think you are really talented”.. and, in a second, I grabbed my phoned and rung Jake telling him I wanted to start a new project. The aim of that album was to write, sing and record the best love declaration that had ever been done hitherto in my life, since I never really had fallen in love like that ever in my life I was finding it hard to handle.. but one thing I knew for sure.. I wanted that relationship to turn into my family. The only way I could express such feelings was through music and so I did.
My first Saint Valentine’s gift ever, besides the best declarations of intentions, was “Gimme your love”, the video that also included an stripped slow ballad version that still makes me cry when I hear it. We were going through a hard journey together and I though that would be a way to try to calm things and apologize for the bricks that I had dropped. That 14th of February I left a CD with the video and an “I love you” post it stuck on it in my partners house…
And I kept on like this with the rest of the songs…
Nowadays I´m single again and still in love (c’est la vie) but I will fix my heart, even if it take a lifetime… that´s why I am releasing “Chaos Theoryk”.. that contains the rest of the songs that were recorded for such cause but never saw the light, until now.
Why did I entitled this album like this?
Because I am a total Chaos. Period.
This year, my life turned into a total chaos, because of thousands of stories that I am telling everyone over and over again But that´s my reality.. if I told you any other thing I would have to lie to you.
I lost my father. He was diagnosed with leuchemia on April of 2013 and he couldn't make it to Christmas... that´s why I hate this year and I´d better not dig deeper on this because I still have a lot to write and I am starting to cry again.
With the level of anxiety and insecurites that I was reaching, the physical and emotional stress and the constant possibility of losing my father, my family and my partner... I lost my voice. It simply vanished as well as my will to live on. I lost my father and my partner before Christmas and I had to hold to my mother and friends to go on. Thank God they were there.. if not I dont know what I would have done...
I also was diagnosed with chronic faringitis and overweight.. so I started attending boxing lessons and decided, by June of 2014, that it was time for Ricardo to get over his deppresion and call RYK again and that´s Chaos Theoryk.
Those 10 songs were written for my former better half but now they mean a starting point for me, to start my life again. I am here, I am alive.
Oops I forgot to tell you that my mother took the picture of the album cover with her cellphone one day while going for a walk together. Isnt it absolutely fabulous?? I love her.
I have a billion contras in my life, I am not perfect at all but I believe that, in this life, you get what you give and that´s why I always smile.
Please, smile with me.
I really hope you like this album, It´s full of love.
Much love and peace from your friend,
RYK
therealryk@gmail.com
